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Sunday, November 23, 2008
It's amazing to see how much can change in a short 4 months...
Somehow, I've become a single mother and a soon-to-be divorcee. You heard correctly, Johnathan up and left us in late July...about 3 days after my ankles healed. At first, I was devastated, but now I realize I'm better off without him...and so is Adrian. It's been a whole 3 weeks since I've seen/heard/emailed/spoken to John (not by MY choice mind you...but I'm not complaining in the least) and almost 4 months since he moved out. And I'm surprisingly doing very well considering...
Adrian is doing well too. He's almost 10 months old and a big "little" boy...what I mean by that is he's looks very slim and babyish, but he's almost 30 inches tall (thus he's now in 18 month pants). He learned several words: ma-ma (me!), ba-ba (bottle), gah-ma (grandma), gup(grandpa), goo, gah, and reah (fred). He also crawls very fast, speeds around in his walker, and pulls himself up to a standing position and then shuffles from side to side while holding on. He'll be walking soon, thus the house is being babyproofed. He's quite expressive and throws temper tantrums when people can't figure out what he wants...very impatient too. With time, I hope to nip that in the butt (the tantrums) and teach him patience. Overall, he's a very good baby and I wouldn't trade him for the world. I look foward to seeing him grow up into a confident, well-mannered, respectable, and lovable young man...but for now he can remain my baby, LOL.
It's a shame that life didn't turn out as I planned it and my fairytale marriage has an unhappy ending, but like they say, when life gives you lemons, make lemonade. And LOTS of lemonade I shall make! I started the lemonade making by moving my furniture around and will be painting the walls and purchasing new bedding/decor to make it my own style. I plan on displaying my artwork around as well since they're just sitting in the closet collecting dust. Kind of like out with the old in with the new. I also returned all of John's things that he left behind (5 boxes worth!)... I was told I could've sold the crap, but I was nice and just gave it back. I also plan on changing Adrian's room around when he's a little bit older to give him more playing space and also will paint the walls and maybe a mural in there so it's really "his" room. He likes cars and trucks, so maybe I'll do something involving that. The next batch of lemonade will have to include finding a new boyfriend with husband-potential...but I'm not too sure about tackling that batch right this moment...the only man I need/kind of want in my life right now is Adrian.
Well, I think I'm heading to bed. I've got an appointment in the morning and that means getting up early and messing up Adrian wonderful schedule (he sleeps from 10:30pm until 9am! How lucky am I?!). I shall update once again at a later date...TTFN!
Current mood:  contemplative
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Well, I've determined that if I can update LJ at least once every 3-4 months, it'll be a miracle!
I've gone and managed to sprain both my ankles (although one is basically fully healed now). This was accomplished by missing Heathie's front step and tumbling foward, landing on top on my feet, and throwing Adrian in the bushes (he was in the carrier and sustained NO injuries btw, in fact he giggled and looked at me like "do it again mommy! that was fun!"). *sigh* NOT looking foward to that ER bill...
Adrian is almost 6 months now! WAHHHH! Where did the time go?! It seems like just yesterday he was a tiny lil newborn. Now he's gigantic, vocalizes his opinions, and is in size 3 diapers and size 6-9 months clothes. I found his premie clothes, hugged them, and cried. He's growing up too fast for my liking. Although I will not complain as he's in bed by 10:30pm and sleeps until 10am the next morning. Wahoo for solid sleep! Overall he's a good baby, thank god! I don't think I'd be able to handle how most kids behave...and that's why I'm comtemplating not having another. I just know he/she will be BAD...be careful what you wish for huh?
I think I shall go to bed now. As soon as I remove an annoying lil kitty from my pillows and remove my leg brace thingie. I can't sleep with it cause it hurts more with it on than off. Bah! I can't wait til I can run around again without getting warnings from John and my parents on how I'm moving around too much too soon. Yeah I know I'll regret it later on, but I have to take care of Adrian and if he needs a baba then he's damn well getting a baba. I have issues with relying on other people...I just can't. I must do things myself to be satisfied...that's why it took me so long to just let John care for Adrian while I relax. Eh, bed now before I get myself too worked up so I can't sleep.
Current mood:  giddy
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Time flies when you're busy busy busy...
Well, Adrian is now about 4 1/2 months old. He giggles, kicks his feet, rolls over, tries to crawl, holds his own bottle at times, stays awake almost all day, eats peaches, prunes, carrots, bananas, pears, and applesauce and yells at me when he's unhappy...loudly to get my attention which sounds like "hey" "hi" "elp" or "gah!". He weighs 14 pounds 10 ounces and is 24 1/2 inches long. Where did the time go?! He also now sleeps through the night (in bed by 11:15pm and wakes up around 11:30am the next morning) in his crib far away from my bed with the door actually closed. I was very nervous for a while but now I'm used to it so much that I no longer need the baby monitor on at night. Yay me!
I need to find more time to update this thing. Although free time is rare since if Adrian is asleep I'm either sleeping too or cleaning. Lil bugger. Of course, John is always eager to help out, but I'd feel guilty for handing off the baby to run on LJ. It just doesn't seem right. I'm mommy and mommy takes care of business and daddy is the playmate. *sigh* I've been slowly getting playtime too, but Adrian just looks at me like "you're NOT my daddy...you do NOT play airplane with me correctly" Bah!
Adrian is napping right now, but I sense he's stirring a bit so I shall go. He might want to watch the wiggles...toot toot chugga chugga!
Current mood:  bouncy
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Motherhood doesn't leave much time for updating LJ unless I wish to suffer from lack of sleep. Adrian's been pretty good sleep-wise (wakes up after around 3-4 hours to be fed and then goes back to sleep) but I feel as if I can't get enough sleep. It's an adjustment as sometimes I just want to do my own thing and I can't because I have to care for Adrian instead. Sometimes I just want to run away, but then he coos at me and cries to be held by me. *sigh* That kid is too cute for his own good. I shall have to lock him up so some pretty girl won't steal him away.
I've decided to return to work earlier than expected. I'm going somewhat stir-crazy being locked in the house with the baby all day. Plus I miss work in general. Granted I can pass him off (that sounds horrible but it's true) to my parents, sisters, or John if neccessary, but I still feel awkward doing so. I'm his mommy and he's my responsibility, but sometimes I just HAVE to. I'd go insane otherwise.
*sigh* Must go, want to post more, but Adrian has awoken for his 2am feeding. Rats. Just when I thought I could enjoy myself. I'll post more at a later date...
Saturday, February 23, 2008
As promised, here's a pic of my son. He's growing up so quickly...he turned 2 weeks old about an hour ago. *sniff* Where did the time go?!
Current mood:  pleased
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
So lil Adrian decided he didn't want to be born on March 5th. He wanted to be born on Saturday and was! I shall post pics as soon as I can, but he was born on February 9th at 10:35pm. He's a tiny 6 pounds 12 ounces and is 19 1/2 inches long. He was 4 weeks early but healthy as can be!
Let me just say I've become an advocate to the use of epidurals. Those things are AMAZING!!! The most wonderful thing ever created. I swear I would've died if I didn't get one. I was only 4cm dialated and was crying hysterically. Of course my mom took before and after pics (I plan on burning/destroying the before pic). Twas an amazing yet painful experience.
Well I must go. It's feeding time!
Current mood:  accomplished
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Whew! It's been a VERY busy week or so. I had doctor's appointments, blood tests, lamaze classes, an ecocardiogram, and sickness to deal with. Since John's work insurance costs outrageous amounts of money, I've had to go and get state insurance and switch doctors and it's been a huge mess, but slowly things are straightening themselves out.
I've determined that most nurses need to be retrained on how to properly find veins in the arms of patients with deep ones. I finally went for my 3 hour glucose test to see if I have gestational diabetes (which I doubt I do!) and ended up getting stabbed 7 times. The test requires blood be drawn a total of 4 times...yet I get 7 stabs. The first lady (who also did the last drawing) got me perfect the first try (one of which was on the arm that usually NO ONE can draw from) which was great. However the second old hag stabbed me 3 times before she finally resorted to using my hand which I freaked about. I'm bad enough dealing with irrational fears of needles and having to calm myself down so I don't shake and cry uncontrollably, but having her end up collapsing the only spot in my good arm doesn't help the situation any. Then the third person stabbed me 2 times before I finally just said "use my hand" to prevent further issues. I was a wreck! *shudder*
And apparently hoispitals don't update their conputer systems or correspond with other departments because somehow they've been sending bills to John's old health insurance which has been expired since December. First off, I told one of them that insurance was no longer valid back in January and for one of the offices I never even gave them that insurance information! *grumble* So of course when I go for the blood testing and the ecocardiogram they have the totally wrong insurance and wig out when I say that "No, that's NOT the correct insurance information or home address" *sigh* But like I said things are being fixed slowly...
Lamaze class is interesting. I'm learning new things and whatnot, but I've found that certain things don't work too well for me and actually make me more tense than relaxed like they're supposed to. John and my mom got annoyed when I flipped out during one of the exercises because they were supposed to touch my shoulders or neck and say "relax your (insert body part here)" while I focus on something else and do the breathing. I lose my concentration and freak out when touched or talked to...I need quiet and to be left alone! We spoke with the instructor (who happens to be the wife of my sisters' psychology professor) and everyone was calmed down (well at least I was relieved to hear) when she said some things don't work for everyone and to not do the touching talking thing until I'm comfortable with the breathing and even then only if I'm able to handle it. I have a feeling I'm going to need the quiet and no touching rules, but I'll give it a shot...lord knows what it'll be like when I'm in pain...which I'm NOT looking foward to...no matter how much free italian ice (any flavor I want!) I can have during it.
Eh, enough of my belly-aching. I do complain alot...hmph! I know that I'm going to have to listen to what the doctors tell me, but I'm NOT going to like it. I gtg, dinners ready!
Current mood: bouncy
Sunday, January 13, 2008
So, it's official, John and I no longer reside at our apartment. We moved back in with my parents last week in hopes to save money and get away from annoying landlords. We live in the furnished basement which isn't too bad. It's kind of cozy actually. The cats love it. It's going to make life much easier as now I'll have help when Adrian is born and my mom has to pay less rent so she can catch up on bills. Yay!
I still need to get TONS of baby stuff. Adrian will be here in about 1 1/2 months, yet all I have is a bassinet, a johnny jump up, many stuffed animals, over 10 burping cloths, 2 blankets, 3 pairs of socks, 2 hats, and a small basket of clothes for when he's 6 months old. I was hoping I'd get a baby shower so I would be given many things, but that's probably not happening now :-( Besides no one who would be invited/attend has much money themselves so I probably wouldn't get the big things I need like a crib, changing table, car seat, stroller, etc. *sigh* At least John can work overtime again so we can attempt to get stuff before Adrian arrives.
I hate when John works overtime. I miss him and feel lonely. Granted I now have family around to keep me company but I still get melancholy when he's gone. And when he works overtime, he's always so tired and I feel guilty that he has to work so much. It's like all he does is go to work, come home, shower, sleep, possibly eat a little bit, and then go back to work. Doesn't make much of an enjoyable life. But we need the money...and I can't work that much so I feel even worse. But me feeling guilty makes John feel guilty and it's a never-ending circle of sadness. And he works numerous hours without complaining and just does it for the sake of Adrian and I. He even gave up going to school to support me while I got my education. I feel guilty for that too although I know he'll go to school eventually, but now it's unknown how or when.
I wish things were different. I don't want John to have to work himself to death. I wish we both had great jobs and saved income so we could give Adrian everything without worries. We'd have a house, solid income, money put away, and no troubles whatsoever. John could stay home every now and then, I could work part time, he could work part time, and I'd never spend another night alone. That would be awesome, but it will never happen...unless I quit/quickly finish school, get a full time job I hate, miss everything, and be miserable.
Bah! No sense in getting myself even more depressed. I had an enjoyable night playing games with my sisters and parents. I should keep thinking about that instead of missing John, but I can't help it. It's like I have seperation anxiety. I always get sad about an hour before he has to leave, remain so until he does leave, and then get even more sad until he comes home the next morning. It's pathetic, but that's just the way it is. I know if he could, John would spend every waking hour with me, sadly life doesn't allow such a luxury. *sigh* One can keep dreaming though...
Current mood:  numb
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
YAY! I'm totally free of school!
Oh this glorious moment has been long awaited. Now I can sit on my fat protruding butt and eat twinkies all day. Well...maybe not twinkies...doughnuts! Oh and Applebee's buffalo chicken bites! And candy, chocolate, and cheese! Yay! I get naps when I want and never have to go out into the blizzard-like cold and travel to the computer lab for aggravation and nonsense. Oh sweet vacation how I love thee!
I'm getting purdy fat lately. Every week I noticed my tummy is getting bigger and bigger...I don't like it one bit! I can't see my feet, my ankles and back hurt, I can't bend down, if I sit then I can't get up without help, getting in and out of the car isn't done without much effort, and the stretch marks on my stomach look like gigantic deep cuts. *bawls* I cry easily (I dropped a piece of paper and couldn't reach it) and get moody and frustrated faster than I can control. Sadness...
At least John tries to make me feel better. But I feel like a whale...a beached whale! And my sister calls me fat, my dad calls me fudgy the whale, my brother calls me an overgrown elephant, and the other sister calls me prego. *sniff* Such a nice family I have...
Bah! I'm going home now. I've depressed myself enough and wish to consume cheese. Mmmm...cheese...
Current mood:  hungry
Friday, December 7, 2007
3' x 4' painting - Done!
Painting Class - Done!
Book cover design - Done!
Book assemblage - Done!
Typography quiz - Done!
Book mounting - In Progess...need to purchase board
Economics paper - Done!
Economics Class - Done!
Spanish presentation - In Progress...if I want powerpoint prettiness
Spanish quizzes - Done!
Artists Statement - Done!
PDF of all work - In Progress...need to write project descriptions for 3, and then put them all together
All that's left is final exams, class on monday, and then I'm home free! YAY!!!
My poor digital camera is broken...it's been broken since the wedding, but I'm extra bummed about it now. I want to take pretty pictures of my belly. I'm big and round and FAT! Plus the kittens have been acting SO cute lately and I've missed it all! Wah!
Well I'm heading home now. I've been in this lab for 4 hours now and I'm sick of it!
Current mood: accomplished
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
Come on semester, end already!
I've got about a week left, yet it drags on and on and on...and professors seem to keep piling on the work. I'm now waiting for the downstairs lab to open so I can have my inside pages designed, printed, and assembled by tomorrow morning for typography. I also have to somehow finish a 3' by 4' painting by Tuesday (which we only have one class to work on), a 3-7page economics paper written and turned in by Friday at noon, spanish homework galore...and bah!
I cannot wait until all I have to worry about is sitting on my butt reading, knitting, needlepointing, or working. Relaxing things...
Stress levels have been at all time highs this week. It sucks rear.
Oh! It's 9pm! Lab is open, yay! I'd write more but work calls!
Current mood:  annoyed
Monday, November 12, 2007
I cannot even begin to tell you how much I'm disliking going to my classes. Especially typography. I find myself rolling my eyes at the professor nonstop and getting thoroughly annoyed with endless critiques and nonsense. And projects being critiqued on a Monday and then due on Wednesday morning given the lab hours as explained in my last post. You can add on to the class being at 8:30am too. Seriously cannot wait until they're over. I should've dropped it, but nope, I decided to stick through it. Bad idea on my part, but oh wellz. Painting is somewhat relaxing and exciting, so I'm okay with that. I kind of enjoy it actually. I'm very good at landscapes so yay for me! Spanish is going well too. Economics is annoying and boring. I'm doing okay in it though, so that's a plus. Then again, I'm supposed to write a 5-7 page report on some economist or something that I just haven't gotten motivated to attempt to read the book about the guy...or even pick the guy for that matter. Same with typography...I'm supposed to rewrite some blurb or whatever and also write a 1 page paper on the typeface Didot...boring!
I've noticed I'm much more irritable and moody lately. And SLEEPY! It's not much fun. Adrian moves around almost all day and it makes me sick. And now my back and feet are starting to hurt due to my "front-heaviness" as my wonderful husband puts it. Jerk. It's the same as calling me fat. I find myself needing 3 hour naps midday even if I've gone to bed by 12am and slept until 10am. And then by 9:30pm I'm wiped out. *grumble* And I crave sandwiches made of boneless buffalo wings inside a glazed doughnut...MMMM...doughnut.
I'm getting more hours at work at least. Not sure if this is so good yet. I mean money is good and I love my job, I just hope I can handle the long hours and juggle school work too. I need to work though. Money is a bit tight at the moment...*sigh* And we still need to find another apartment to live in by March. Unless we stay where we are, but I don't care for the management nor do I like the high rent. We still are thinking about buying a house, but I fear that we won't be able to afford it and fall in way over our heads. I wih some nice fairy would jus grant me 3 wishes. I'd wish for money, a cheap but nice home that allows pets, and all the baby stuff I'm going to need for Adrian. *sigh* The only one of those that might come true is the last as maybe someone will be nice and throw me a baby shower where everyone gives me what I need. Every parent's dream...bah!
Well, I must get going. I'm tired and want to go home for the night. I'm sick of this computer lab. And of my school work. You know I bought the lastest book in my series and I haven't even read it yet! Nor have I had time to work on my dollhouse...not that I need it as Adrian is a boym but oh well. Going now. Bye bye!
Current mood: discontent
Sunday, November 4, 2007
So life is uber busy lately thus I haven't had time to post until now.
Wedding went great. Twas fun although our cake was totally messed up flavor-wise (they gave us chocolate in our anniversary layer and real strawberries with whipped cream as filling instead of strawberry preserves and the chocolate was supposed to be in the actual cake layers, bah!), and my photographer left at 9:30pm (the reception lasted til 11pm). Eh, oh well. It was a very fun yet interesting night. John somehow managed to down about 10 different alcoholic beverages and get drunk off his lil ass. His uncle, best man, friend, and I had to carry him and strap him into the car and basically baby-talk him to calm down. It was scary at first cause he was angry, but then calmed down and became the most giddy person on earth. Needless to say, through all the comotion of my dad's van having a flat, me forgetting house keys in the midst of John's drunkness, we spent our wedding night on my parent's pull out couch. It's one of those had to be there to see it things. F**king hilarious memories though!
School is going...okay I suppose. I'm SO ready for the semester to be over and done with. Painting isn't as bad as originally predicted to be. I have a B in it at this point and I'm proud. I kind of like it, kind of don't. Typography is a beast and I loathe the class. Too much work expected to be done when no labs are open (mainly when projects are assigned Monday morning and due Wednesday morning...in that timeframe labs are only open Monday after 9:30pm, Tuesday before 12:30pm and after 9:30pm...plus I have classes until 9:30pm Tuesday so it gets rough. Luckily the last couple projects have had longer due dates so there's plenty of time to work on stuff. Spanish is going great. The only class I actually enjoy going to. My professor is awesome and makes class interesting. Economics is just economics...late night on tuesday...at least the professor lets us have a break in the middle and usually sends us home early. It's dreadful.
*yawn* It's 8:30pm on a Sunday night...bah! I like this extra hour thingy. I've gotten more work done today than I have all month. I cleaned and vacumed the apartment, went to the Atown Art Museum, did research for my typography project, researched for my painting essay, updated live journal, and when I get home I shall finish the laundry and relax while stitching my poor neglected needlepoint dollhouse...oh and feed Adrian as he's kicking me to say "mommy, food time" either that or he just dislikes the desk being so near my stomach. Eh, probably both. He gets excited when I go to painting class. Weird kid. Not even born yet and already likes art.
Well, I shall get going now so I can be home in time for John's 9:15pm call to check in on me. I'm going to try to update more often, but lord knows what life is going to throw at me next...see ya!
Current mood: accomplished
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Yay! Our baby is a boy! We're gonna name him Adrian Scott Jumper. He moves around and kicks now. And does NOT like being poked and prodded by ultrasound machines or by various family members. He kicked the cat for laying on my tummy. And kicked John's head when he used my tummy as a pillow. Hehe! Only bad part is that he figured out how to turn himself upside down and kick up into my stomach while I'm eating. NOT PLEASANT. We're so excited for him. We've got his bassinet all ready with his bear and blanket. And we have a basket filled with other stuff we've gotten for him too. It's all set up in a lil corner of the room. Squee!
Wedding is in about 16 hours. I remain held captive at my mom's house unable to sleep without my John being near. I miss him and my cats. But tradition says I can't see him until the wedding ceremony tomorrow night. Bah! I need my John warmth and comfyness. I wonder what he's up to...probably playing video games and being nervous. And I'm not there to comfort him *sigh* I'm a bit nervous myself...but I'll be fine. I just hope I don't start crying or get embarrassed tomorrow. I never really was good or comfortable showing public affection. I don't like to profess my love or kiss with everyone staring. Nor do I like dancing in front of people. Dancing won't be too bad I guess as I'll have John there to make me feel better, but I still dread the whole thing.
Eh, I'm gonna go try to sleep. I can't be tired tomorrow...
Current mood:  nervous
Sunday, September 2, 2007
Dear god people must think I've fallen off the face of the earth!
Well I haven't. I've just been very busy. John's been working non-stop to pay for the wedding. I've been working and attending classes. And sleeping. LOTS of sleeping and eating.
Wedding is a little over a month. Yikes! Lots of people haven't responded yet. Which pisses me off since the RSVP date was yesterday. I'll give them a week before I give the final count. Any stragglers after that get NO food! MUHAHAHHAHA! Nah, we can have a few show up unexpectedly. But if they only come to the reception, they still get no food. To be at my wedding is an honor, to ditch the ceremony and show up for the party is NOT COOL! Lol!
Other exciting news is that John and I are expecting a baby in March! YAY! I'll be fat for my wedding, but it's all good. John's excited and wants a girl. I want a boy. My siblings and parents want a girl. John's grandmom wants a boy. *sigh* I won't find out until it's born. I was contemplating finding out on October 15th when I go for the sexing ultrasound, but I'm still torn. I want it to be a surprise, but I don't. I want to be able to tell people "oh it's a boy/girl" not "oh I don't know" Not fun! Plus then we get all these ugly neutral colors for stuff. I don't know...
Well I must get going. 25 paintings are due Tuesday but take 2-3 days to dry. Must get started. TTYL!
Current mood:  sleepy
Saturday, July 28, 2007
You never realize how wonderful your own bed is until you've been away from it for so long. My bed is amazing and comfy. And warm, big enough for my long legs, and full furry love from Hazel and Angel. My lil kitties are SO happy we're back. They've missed us. Of course I missed them too!
I wasn't demoted at Dorney! I'm just a floater with no home. So if a TL calls off, needs off, or a place needs more coverage, I'm sent there for the day. It's like "Steph to the rescue!!!" Fun times. I go back tomorrow morning. In the heat. Yucky! I liked Oregon's weather much better. But it's good to be getting back into normal life again...well almost normal life.
My parents are selling their house and moving into a bigger rented one. Each kids gets their own room, they have a fireplace, a dining room, in-ground pool, kitchen with an island counter, jacuzzi, and a sun room. Lucky ducklings! At least I get to come over for visits and get ready for my wedding there. Fun!
I was able to change my flower order drastically. It went from being $850 to only $280. That's around 500 in savings. Flowers are still pretty but not as costly. I figured we were in way over our heads wedding budget-wise. Hopefully things work out in the end.
Well I must go. I promised my mom I'd re-tile her bathroom floor tonight. Lord knows how long that will take...
Current mood:  tired
Monday, July 16, 2007
I like Oregon, but I miss my cats. Tomorrow we're heading to the aquarium and spending the night in a hotel with a pretty pool. I have no idea why but John's mom decided we should go to Newport for a few days. I had no objections as long as we went to the aquarium. So yay! We also get to spend time with Chance (the giant whipy chow) and Mika (John's grandpa's other puppy). And check my email, update here, and sleep in a comfy queen bed. I miss my bed at home too. A single size bed is NOT comfy if two pushy and cover-hogging people have to sleep in it!
Apparently Dorney has issues with me being gone for so long. In fact, I might be getting demoted for it. I shall fight it for all it's worth. At least I got Gertrude straightened out. *sigh* Jobs suck.
*yawn* I'm sleepy so I shall go to sleep now.
Current mood: sleepy
Friday, July 6, 2007
wow! what a rough couple of days.. undoubtably you've read stephs post.. so i will spare on that.. i just cant believe he did that! how could he do that to himself and let everyone that cared about him suffer? i talked to him 4 days earlier and he was happy and doing good.. he even agreed to wear a tux at my wedding (which for those of you who know how i am.. it was even mora a miracle for him to wear it) Well, nmy mom is taking it hard but she has such wonderful friends out her.. all the people that knew her at work pitched in to help me and steph get out here.. I can'y belive they paid for the whole ticket!!!
My parents had a person living with them that happened to be my dad's best friend (yet another miracle on his part) and i know she will help my mom out.. (she's the one that found my dad) he had good friends and wasn't sour towards anyone anymore..
sigh
i probaly wont be posting for a while as usual, im goin to try and relax and have a good time
i gotta be strong for my mom and family and thankfully steph is here.. she keeps me ok and she has been a HUGE help to my mom..
For those of which I didn't get a chance to notify we were leaving PA, John and I are currently in Oregon for the next 2-3 weeks. It's a sad and unexpected vacation but one that is neccessary. John's dad died on Tuesday morning due to self-infliction. I used to just outright say what happened and shock people, but I've toned it down a bit as out here, it's a bit extreme and upsetting. To be blunt so I don't have to go into details, his dad hung himself in the garage while his mom was at the beach.
John is surprisingly taking it okay. His mom on the other hand has her moments which is to be expected. We're mainly here as a support structure in those moments and to help clean up the mess that was left both physically and emotionally. They just lost Marie (john's grandma) about 3 months ago so it's a bit harder on them. Sad thing is that he seemed perfectly normal and was healthy and looking foward to planned weekend events and our wedding. Who knows what went through his head.
In other news, I'm a TL at Dorney! Well I was for a day before I left. I hated to leave but I had to. Hopefully I'm not demoted for this, although technically they can't due to the circumstances. Bah! I must go now as we're heading out to Oldtown Florence for some theraputic shopping with John's mom. Byes!
Current mood:  okay
Friday, June 1, 2007
5:50PM
Annoying day...
Slept until 2pm, got into a HUGE fight with John over northing, and now am staying away for a while...
*grumbles*
If there was an easy way to lose weight that didn't require exercise I'd do it...unless it involves counting calories as I'm lazy and stubborn. You'd think walking up and down hills at Dorney would work wonders for a computer/couch/bed potato. But no, I'm still blimpy the tall fatso. *sigh* At least my wedding dress still fits...
Current mood:  uncomfortable
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